Trying to figure out the real me

I'm not even sure what to say today. I am still unemployed, still trying to sort my life out. I really have enjoyed being creative with this site, but there is a side of me that still remains empty.

I guess I shouldn't be pestimistic and just try to be a happy unicorn, but that is really hard when your partner is constantly expressing disapproval at what I am creating. I am beginning to feel very isolated, lonely and over all blah. I guess that's just life. I really am thankful for the blessings I have in my life don't get me wrong. Most people never get to see and experience the wonderful things I have. I am just at a crossroads.

Do I get back into the business world after perpetually failing the last 3 and a half years with having stable employment? Or do I seek after this new life as Ashlee?

Only time will tell.

-Ashes